RecoverYourLife.com Forums http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum Welcome to RecoverYourLife.com - Information and support for all forms of Self Harm, including self injury, eating disorders and other depression related conditions en Sun, 05 Feb 2012 19:22:02 GMT vBulletin 1 http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/images/ca_morpheus_blue/misc/rss.jpg RecoverYourLife.com Forums http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum Ignoring my physical health http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182311&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 19:12:07 GMT Not really sure what I want from this post, but I desperately need to talk to someone. I am struggling massively with my eating, mainly due to the fact I think I am still in denial that I have a problem. On the one side, I know I do, but I... Not really sure what I want from this post, but I desperately need to talk to someone.
I am struggling massively with my eating, mainly due to the fact I think I am still in denial that I have a problem. On the one side, I know I do, but I resolutely refuse or cannot make the changes to sorting it out. Does that make sense?
My eating is making me physically unwell. Everytime something happens, I get scared and make a pact with myself to get better and start eating and stop the laxatives, being sick etc. And for a day or two, I may increase my calorie content, or have a couple of days off exercising but as soon as I feel 'okay' again, I panic and I start again.
I am concerned about my physical health on a daily basis, and Ive been told I need to have fortnightly blood tests, but I just cannot bring myself to go to the doctors. I just cancel the appointments and carry on in my own little world, denying I have a problem, or need to go the appointments.
Logically, I know I do! But the thought of going and being weighed terrifies me so much I want to cry when I think about it and I would rather take the chance with my physical health than go and be weighed, and I know if I go, I have to be weighed, so I feel utterly trapped.
Also I now havent had a period for 3 months, which I know is because of my weight loss - Im not worried about it as such, but I havent told anyone that my periods have stopped. I sort of wondered if that is thing worth mentioning or not? I guess not because theres nothing anyone can do about it, except me and at the moment I cannot eat more.
I know people are going to say I need to take responsibility for my physical health, and half of me completely agrees, Im just so totally terrified and scared and feel utterly alone, and dont know how to bring myself to take action on this.
Has anyone else ever felt this way??? Or is it just me being crazy?!?:crying: ]]> Eating Disorder Support Pink_and_Sparkly http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182311 what made you realise? http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182310&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 18:44:35 GMT Recently I've really been thinking about things to do with my self harm and one of the really confusing things is when did I realise I had a problem or had to stop. When did you guys find this happening to you? Was it anything specific? xx ]]> Self-Injury Discussion and Support GingerBecky_x http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182310 General Medical Question - Non Urgent - Somethings wrong. http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182309&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 18:43:26 GMT I'm not sure if I'm being paranoid or if there is something wrong. I'm going to get booked in the doctors anyway, I'm just posting this to 'hopefully' ease my mind in the mean time.
I can't explain it exactly, I just feel like something's very wrong with my body. I'm bleeding mid-cycle, I have weird stomach pains.. not overly painful but.. yeah. I'm always tired, I get mild head-aches during the day, just lately during the day Ive had this sharp pain behind one of my eyes.
All this is real little stuff, but I can't help feeling like there is something very wrong with my body. I'm worried. Very worried.
I know there's not a lot people here can do.. Like I said, I'm getting booked in the doctors, hopefully tomorrow. I don't want to go there sounding silly and stupid though. But.. theres something wrong, I can feel it. ]]> First Aid Advice LunaticLorraine http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182309 Gastric bypass http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182307&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 18:17:22 GMT Hi, At the moment I'm just going through the process of getting a gastric bypass done privately. I went to see the consultant last week and he is happy to do the operation as long as I have a psychiatric assessment and get a letter from the psychiatrist saying that she agrees with me having the bypass and that she will support me. I'm really scared right now that the psychiatrist will say no as I would be absolutely devastated. The consultant said that because I self-harm, he was worried that I might not take the vitimins after the op. I'm just wondering if anyone else has had this experience and can give me some advice and also if anyone has had the bypass out there and can give me some advice/support whilst i'm going through this process. Many thanks! x ]]> General Support and Advice baggyjeans http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182307 Difficult day. http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182306&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 18:13:14 GMT Hey,

I feel very nervous about posting and I am sorry if I get it wrong. I haven't posted a thread for a long time and struggle to know what to write.

I miscarried at the end of June under very difficult circumstances and today would have been the day the baby was due. I am finding it such a difficult day, and it's already an incredibly difficult time.

I am having a lot of flashbacks at the moment and lots of thoughts of harming myself. I'm also just feeling generally hopeless and like a lost cause.

I'm not sure what to do, how to help myself sort of thing. I'm sorry if this post makes no sense but thank you in advance.

xxx ]]> Serious Discussion and Advice Tig http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182306 Umm ouch? :\ http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182304&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 17:45:01 GMT Umm yeah. So, long story short, I fell and dislocated my wrist Thursday morning (left wrist) in 3 spots.... Blue splint was put on on thursday. Got the blue wrap taken off on Saturday and got an ace wrap put over the splint material.... The... Umm yeah. So, long story short, I fell and dislocated my wrist Thursday morning (left wrist) in 3 spots.... Blue splint was put on on thursday. Got the blue wrap taken off on Saturday and got an ace wrap put over the splint material.... The pictures of my hands without my splint on were taken today to compare the two hands for swelling... Ouch :$
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]]> General Chat carebear96 http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182304 Being yourself http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182303&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 17:44:08 GMT This aspect of our lives - self and identity - has gradually been entering my consciousness over the past couple of years. Personally, i think i've been robbed of a strong identity due to invalidation from my mum and the childlike distain, disdain and egotism of my dad.

Has anyone else considered the loss of selfhood as being a cause their problems?

Here's a very interesting article on the issue by a guy called Terry Lynch http://www.psychmind...selfhood001.htm He also has a book dedicated to the subject here: http://www.amazon.co...28354912&sr=8-1 I have no knowledge of him or his work, i'm purely passing on this information that i've found just now.

And a book that i've had on my wish list for a while is The Haunted Self http://www.amazon.co...d=27B0R5WFMGBRR Although it looks to be a difficult read, i'm considering getting it as it may be quite important for me. ]]> Mental Health Discussion and Support Hantise http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182303 What should I do with sequins? http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182302&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 17:27:45 GMT I bought a load of sequins from Poundland because they were cheap and it seemed like a good deal. Now I've realised I have no idea what to do with them. I'm not particularly creative. Any ideas?
Preferable not involving sewing, because I can't sew. I have tried threading sequins onto a thread to make a charm thing but it didn't turn out great, and there's no point making a hundred strings of sequins. :tongue2: ]]> Creative Corner Guineapigged http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182302 how to cover while swimming? http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182301&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 17:16:09 GMT heyy, ive got a problem... i was clean for a while but now i cut again, and my problem is: i will go on vacation soon with my best friend, she doesnt know about me, nobody knows, the problem is we're gonna fly to north africa and surely we will go swimming... how can i cover my scars?
they are all on my left wrist, normally i wear a lot of bracelets or sweatbands, but that would be strange in a pool or?
if you have any idea what to do please let me know
xoxo ]]> Self-Injury Discussion and Support fail1.0 http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182301 Any Say Anything fans out there? http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182300&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 16:06:07 GMT I absolutely love this band. Any other people who like it too?
It's absolutely my distraction. ]]> Reviews and Recommendations butterflylea http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182300 Reviews Requested- Safe - Snow photography. http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182297&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 15:36:16 GMT Yesterday, my fiance and I went down the canal so he could take some pictures. He's hoping to improve his skills and wants to get a decent camera eventually so he would like some reviews and constructive criticism. Thanks :)

























]]> Creative Corner Kame http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182297 Do you personify inanimate objects? http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182296&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 15:34:08 GMT I've always felt very strongly for some inanimate objects. My phone is six years old; it's a Nokia which cost £40. I'd really quite like to upgrade, as my phone doesn't even have a camera, nevermind this whole WiFi, App., Bluetooth thing. But... my phone's served me well and is still working. Wouldn't it hurt its feelings if I put it in a drawer and replaced it with something newfangled?

So now I'm thinking... maybe I should put it into 'retirement'. Maybe I should sit it by a warm fire, knit it jumpers, surround it with Werther's Original and talk to it about the good old days.

My mum always managed to get me to finish all my dinner when I was a child by telling me that "that potato will think you've rejected it if you don't eat it... it won't have fulfilled its lifelong duty".

I was wondering if I'm just bonkers, or whether other people: apologise to clothes in shops when they knock them off racks/thank cash machines/talk to plants? ]]> General Chat reappear http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182296 Image Heavy - Sheep Appreciation Thread http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182295&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 15:32:56 GMT Ladies and gentlemen... Boys and girls... Sheep of all ages, can I have your attention please? Image: http://i1211.photobucket.com/albums/cc439/samthesheep/Sheep/sheep-snow-card.jpg Welcome to the SHEEP APPRECIATION THREAD Brought to you by Sam...
Ladies and gentlemen... Boys and girls... Sheep of all ages, can I have your attention please?



Welcome to the
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]]> General Chat Twirly Leo http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182295 Found a video of myself :P http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182292&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 14:22:01 GMT I just found a really funny video of me when I was younger and I'm dancing not to well :P

Go to this link if you want to see it :)

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=...pe=3&th eater ]]> General Chat vonAppen http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182292 Reduced Team Presence http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182290&goto=newpost Sun, 05 Feb 2012 13:12:07 GMT Hi,

As some of you may have noticed I've not been online as much over the last couple of weeks as I normally would be and that is likely to carry on and potentially worsen over time. I've started doing voluntary work which consists of two 10hr+ shifts/wk and so often by the time I get back on those evenings and things I'm already quite tired as well as the fact that I have my own health issues to contend with.

Really, at the moment, the FA Team as a whole are struggling with KimB (Bitter_Angel) being unable to come on as much at the moment and Jeremy (Jetforce), our WCA is also finding it hard to come online for the moment due to other commitments. We are trying to think of solutions to this as it is likely to now be more of a long term problem so watch this space and we'll see what happens.

I am still answering PMs (though sometimes it may be the day after they were sent as I've found myself not even turning my laptop on everyday) so if you want to get in touch with me then feel free to PM me and this can relate to anything to do with the FAF or your own problems.

What I would say is that if you want to post then that's fine as always but beware that you may not get a member of the team looking through your thread (and if we do we may not reply) so some on info given may be innaccurate.

Can I also remind people to keep periodically reading the rules of the forum and also looking at information in both the articles and also look at the information in the authorised links posted in the FAF as a lot of this can give valuable info and often quicker.

KimA, First Ad Advisor ]]> First Aid Advice Animad http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=182290